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原作者： Cat Zhang

翻译：Joonly EC

校对：Ryan-Chopin

排版：Ryan-Chopin

对社交媒体时代焦虑的一种完全真诚的审视

Pop singer Ari Leff advocates powerfully for being forthright about your feelings, but his album’s whopping 21-song tracklist is underwhelming and repetitive.

流行歌手Ari Leff强烈主张做人要直言不讳，但他的专辑中有整整21首歌，繁冗到让人瑟瑟发抖。

Bebe Rexha is “Sad.” Olivia O’Brien wants to be “Sad Together.” Chelsea Cutler is “Sad Tonight.” All of Snakehips and Tinashe’s friends are wasted; all of Tate McRae’s friends are fake; all the kids Jeremy Zucker knows aredepressed. The 25-year-old pop singer Lauv—who’s written forCharli XCX and toured with Ed Sheeran—is already well-versed in this very bummed, very online state of a generation. His debut album, ~how i’m feeling~, is a wholly sincere look at angst in the age of social media. “We’re never alone, but always depressed, yeah,” he laments on the closer “Modern Loneliness.”

Bebe Rexha是“悲伤的”。Olivia O’Brien想要“一起悲伤”。Chelsea Cutler“今晚很悲伤”。Snakeships和Tinashe的朋友都在虚度青春;Tate McRae的朋友都很假;Jeremy Zucker认识的所有孩子都很沮丧。25岁的流行歌手lauv曾为Charli XCX写过歌，并与Ed Sheeran一起巡演过。他的首张专辑《~how i’m feeling~》是对社交媒体时代焦虑的一种完全真诚的审视。“我们从不孤独，但总是抑郁，”在谈到单曲“Modern Loneliness”时，他如此哀叹道。

Pop’s pivot to melancholy attests to a certain progress: People on the internet—teenagers especially—are more willing than ever to open up about mental health. Yet the language that’s meted out to talk about it, to really talk about it, is still so limited that what looks like relief often serves to slot our emotions into familiar and digestible templates. (“im like ~~~anxiettyyyy, and then never see a therapist,” a friend joked recently.) The conspicuous text-message stylization of~how i’m feeling~ makes the tension clear. In contemporary lexicon, bracketing your message in tildes is a form of hedging, of preemptively undercutting the seriousness of what you’re about to say; all-lowercase lettering is another method of shrinking things down. But Lauv wants to cut out the posturing. “We live in a world where a lot of people are afraid of really expressing themselves,” he’ssaid. “I want you to hear my music and feel, ‘I can be honest and vulnerable with the people around me.’”

流行音乐趋向忧郁这一点证明了一种进步:网络上的人们——尤其是青少年——比以往任何时候都更愿意敞开心扉谈论心理健康。然而，用来谈论它的语言，真正谈论它的语言，仍然是如此的有限，以至于看起来轻松的东西，往往会把我们的情绪放入熟悉的、可消化的模板中。(“我真的~~~太~焦~虑~啦，不过我也不会去看心理医生，”一个朋友最近开玩笑说。)引人注目的文本信息程式化《~how i’m feeling~》使紧张关系变得清楚。在当代词典中，用波浪线括起你的信息是一种模棱两可的表达形式，是一种先发制人的方式，削弱了你要讲的内容的严肃性;全小写字母是另一种削弱的方法。但Lauv想要摆脱这种姿态。“在这个世界里，我们很多人都不敢真正地表达自己，”他说。“我想让你听到我的音乐，感觉到‘我可以对周围的人诚实且展示脆弱的一面。’”

One obstacle to expressing yourself is working up the courage to do so; another is figuring out, on your own terms, who that self really is. As a public figure, Lauv advocates powerfully for being forthright about your feelings, but his album’s whopping 21-song tracklist is underwhelming and repetitive. Lauv calls it “diverse, emotional, and lit,” but ~how i’m feeling~ is mostly temperate, EDM-lite affairs jumbled with piano ballads and Sheeran-style nice-guy folk, plus one blatant bid for a Latin-pop hit (the Sofía Reyes-assisted “El Tejano”). Much of the emotional substance is laid out in the titles: feelings are hard (“Feelings”), I’m lonely as fuck (“fuck, i’m lonely”), I’m so tired of love songs (“i’m so tired”). These are Tumblr posts adapted as studio hits.

表达自我的一个障碍是得鼓起勇气去表达;另一个是，根据你自己的条件，找出那个自我到底是谁。作为一名公众人物，Lauv强烈主张要坦率地表达自己的情感，但他的专辑中有整整21首歌，繁冗到让人瑟瑟发抖。Lauv称其为“多样的、情绪化的、光明的”，但我的感觉是，这些歌大多是温和的电子舞曲风格，混杂着钢琴民谣和Ed Sheeran的风格般的好男人情歌，再加上对拉丁流行歌曲的公然追求(例如由Sofia Reyes协助完成的"El Tejano")。歌曲大部分的情感内容都写在标题里:“Feelings”中唱到的"我感觉很难受"，“fuck, I’m lonely”中唱到的"我孤单得要死"，“I’m so tired”中唱到的"我厌倦了情歌"。这些都是来自Tumblr上的帖子，被这位歌手改编成录音室里的歌曲。

When Lauv leaps into a pained falsetto on ballads like “Julia” and “Sad Forever,” you feel the pang of his isolation. But his few moments of existential elegance are undermined by tonally mismatched production. “I wonder what it feels like to be more than I am,” he quavers on “Drugs & the Internet,” before a jarring drop turns the song into a schoolyard stomp. Elsewhere, serious themes are almost completely obscured by mild, Spotify-friendly vibes. “fuck, i’m lonely” features on the soundtrack of the teen-suicide drama 13 Reasons Why, but with its staticky, air-fried finger snaps and tropical ambiance, the Anne-Marie duet is more fit for a flirty island romp.

当Lauv在"Julia"和"Sad Forever"等抒情曲中弹唱出痛苦的假声时，你会感到他被孤立的痛苦。但他那为数不多的存在主义优雅时刻，却被旋律不协调的作品破坏了。他在"Drugs & the Internet"中写道:“我想知道，在一首刺耳的歌曲变成校园里的跺脚声之前，比我更真实的自己是什么感觉。”在其他地方，严肃的主题几乎完全被温和、友好的氛围所掩盖。青少年自杀剧《十三个原因》的配乐中出现了“fuck, i'm lonely”，但他与Anne Marie的二重唱更适合用在小岛上轻浮的嬉笑场景。

More often than not, Lauv’s attempts to be all-inclusive dilute his message. When he says “we’re never alone, but always depressed,” “depressed” could encompass everything from one-time alienation at a party to life-threatening imbalances in brain chemistry. “I’m lonely just like you,” he repeats on the moody, stadium-ready “Lonely Eyes.” The girl to whom Lauv confesses this fact is so curiously blank that she has few features apart from her “lonely eyes” and her proclivity for expensive vacations. Other characters are even more laughably one-dimensional: “Billy” is a juvenile redemption story about a misfit who grew up in poverty, then “woke up in a Tesla at 23.” (Billy is also the name of Lauv’s dog.)

通常情况下，Lauv试图包罗万象的尝试冲淡了他想传递的信息。当他说“我们从不孤独，但总是抑郁”时，“抑郁”可能包括一切，从派对上的一次疏离到危及生命的脑化学失衡。“我和你一样孤独，”他重复着那忧郁的、时刻准备着的“孤独的眼睛”。当Lauv向那个女孩坦白这一事实时，她是如此的茫然，以至于除了“孤独的眼睛”和对昂贵假期的癖好外，她几乎没有什么特征。其他角色甚至更可笑，都是单维的:"Billy"讲的是一个青少年救赎的故事，讲述了一个不合群的人如何在贫困中长大，然后“23岁时在一辆特斯拉里醒来”。(Billy也是Lauv的狗的名字。)

On social media, as in pop music, it’s become increasingly fashionable to display one’s authentic, imperfect self. But the rush to “get real” hasn’t really removed the filter on our expression, only altered its tint. Likewise, the six “Little Lauvs” on the album cover, each wearing a different color of the rainbow, supposedly represent divergent facets of the artist’s personality, a bit like the dueling emotions of Pixar’s Inside Out. As with so much of ~how i’m feeling~,the concept seems simultaneously over- and under-developed: There may be six different versions of Lauv pulling the strings, but in the end, they all sound alike.

在社交媒体上，就像在流行音乐中一样，展示一个人真实的、不完美的自我已经变得越来越时尚。但是急于“变得真实”并没有真正去除我们脸上的过滤器，只是改变了它的颜色。同样地，专辑封面上的六个“小Lauv”，每个人都穿着不同的彩虹色衣裳，据说代表了这位艺术家性格的不同方面，有点像Pixar的"Inside Out"里的决斗情绪。就像我的感受一样，这个概念似乎是同时在过度发展但也发展不足:也许有六种不同版本的Lauv在幕后操纵，但最终，它们听起来都是一样的。